It has been a minute since I have even been on this website but I have been having the itch to share / write down what has happened in the last few months. And I still can’t decide if this is premature or too much but with everything, I have no chill so here I am.
The start to me and Mike’s journey to trying to become parents has had a rocky start. In December 2021 I found out I got pregnant on my IUD (insane I know, my doctor was shook but I hope I’m not scaring anyone), it didn’t stick (we think I was around 4 weeks) but it made us realize we were ready to start trying.
Soon there after, in March 2022, I got pregnant again and was so excited! At week 7 I had what we thought was a miscarriage, Mike was out of town (he never is) and it was an incredibly hard week but I was so thankful I had told a few friends who were able to be there for me. That Friday, I went to dry bar for a pick me up and left rushed in terrible pain. After talking to my Dr. I had a friend take me to the ER and my mom met me there. Hours upon hours later I was admitted to the hospital with a plan to have exploratory surgery in the morning because something was not normal . Thankfully Mike arrived the next morning right after I was out of surgery – a surgery that ended up being more than exploratory. While in that yellow dry bar chair trying to get my groove back, a ectopic pregnancy and a small cyst both burst 🤯 and they had to remove 1 of my fallopian tubes and the other 1 didn’t look so hot. Even reading that back is wild and honestly comical – after grieving the miscarriage I was getting some energy back and was trying to feel myself again and BAM I am one tube down and in pain. Also, clearly I am a ‘if you don’t laugh you’ll cry’ type person and am OK which is why I am able to share and say this with a bit of humor.
The thing keeping me from crying or worrying an exorbitant amount? Reading all the amazing infertility week stories of successful IVF babies. We are starting the next chapter of this journey next month and are feeling excited and hopeful.
Say hello back to the blog because I’ll be sharing the journey here. How many times have I said journey 🤦🏼♀️.
Oh wait, one last thing. There is a lot of stigma / conversation around telling people before 12 weeks that you are pregnant and I get it, I do but I also know I could not have gotten through the IUD pregnancy or everything in March without my girlfriends. I am [clearly] a sharer and so sharing the news is what felt most natural to me. So with all of that said and done, if you feel the desire to share with your people, share!
Oh I wish I had known this when I saw you the other day to give you the biggest hug! You are amazing and so powerful never forget that. We struggle for many years. So if you ever need a someone to talk about anything I am here. I am so glad to read that you have a strong supportive group of girlfriends. I made some of my strongest friendships during my infertility days and I am so thankful to still have them. Sending so much love to you guys
So glad you are sharing this. You are not alone! Love you!!
Oh Emily I am so sorry honey. I know you and Mike will make wonderful parents. Keep blogging. Keep smiling. Keep believing. XOXO
I’m so sorry that you’ve had such a time of it Emily.
So much of this resonated with me- so thank you for sharing. Sharing is such a powerful tool of de stigmatizing the shame/ guilt/ emotional overload of any fertility journey.
Thinking of you and routing for you!
Share away, beautiful girl! Every infertility journey is different, but I had one and, with my two babies (sandwiched between two miscarriages) now in college, I am in your corner to encourage, weep and cheer.
Thinking about you and sending much love ❤️❤️Maria